Memories of a CNY past.

It's the Year of the Rabbit officially tomorrow and the first time in my life that I am celebrating it without Grandma.

I miss her. I miss my family. I miss going back to Ipoh , miss seeing my uncles and aunts, miss gossiping with my cousins, miss just reading cards for Grandma when we play Blackjack just for fun.

Ah Mah has always been the glue that brings everyone together and even though I made everyone promise during her funeral last year that we will not let the tradition go, it shows how quickly people move on with their own lives. It's just the first year and everyone is celebrating it with their own nucleus family.

Maybe it's just me who is being sentimental or just me that's holding on to the memories of Ah Mah but if I can just trace back - it's times like these, spending times with family and my Ah Mah that I feel the most contented. Times when I feel that I am just so at peace and happy.

I know certain people will miss her more - Gary, Kim and Jiku. But life happens , right ? But I know that if we do not make a special effort to keep in touch, albeit just a phone call, an sms or just an email, we will grow apart. And that would be a shame wouldn't it ? Cos we are family. And a family that loves each other sticks together. I know Ah Mah will be sad too knowing that we are celebrating Chinese New Year all apart.

I wonder when we are having our reunion this year, who will be thinking of Ah Mah? I know I will be. How about you ?

Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone.